Getting this Blog up to Speed

I haven't posted on here since 2009?! Man that's a long time.


Meh. Ok in 2010 I switch doctors yet again (was switching doctors a lot for a while due to insurance changing over and over).

The doctor seemed to not know that much but we manged to get a referral to a the only person on staff that could give a test to see if there was any chance I had this Asperger's thing someone had mentioned I might have a few years before (and I'd promptly researched it as I am wont to do and thought 'hey some of this does sound like me!')

The doctor didn't want to give me an official diagnosis for some reason but said he was 90% sure I had Asperger's.

Switched doctors again and trying to find a better job. New doctor seems to be helpful. We got a bunch more records that we'd never had our hands on before and after talking and emailing a bit I got an appointment to have an MRI.

That was a few weeks ago now I think (my concept of time passing and having past is poor).

About the MRI:

I'd never had an MRI done before and they said we were good to go but just to be sure we asked about the 'staples' in my heart (the paperwork from ages ago says they're clamps but I was always told they were staples.) Doctor guy said it should be fine but he took the copied paperwork with him and asked to be sure. Then he was 'dumb' and told me that if I felt anything in my heart (literally) to squeeze on this squeeze bulb and he'd stop the MRI and pull me out. >.< ;

How would I, who have trouble knowing where my body is in space at times and rarely know what to do with my arms when not using them, who would I know to recognize some feelings I had no reference for?

Thankfully after freaking out due to nervousness and paranoia(My mind is a scary place to live in) I got pulled out and he asked me if wanted to reschedule or try to continue. I had to wait and calm down so I could think clearly (I was quite upset but not as much as I've been in the past over far lesser things). I thought about it and decided to try again so we could get it over and done with. I don't mind saying that I prayed in that MRI thing for a while before I calmed down and just tried to stay awake in case something did go wrong and I needed to squeeze the squeeze thingy. Due to paranoidness I had removed my under wire bra(had a shirt on naturally) and for modesty's sake had my arms crossed over my chest. The doctor assumed I wanted to keep that pose while in the MRI. Me thinks some people may be too used to scanning mummies. That is not a comfortable position to be in for a half hour or more when you can't move any. It was loud in the thing but I have a good imagination and so I pretended the sounds were music and stuff and the one noise that sounded when I occasionally swallowed was it scanning my brain. Yes I am weird but only some of it is personality the rest I'm still waiting to find out about.

No result back from the MRI people yet. They did call the day after but seemed to have me mixed up with someone who had a mammogram which being a 'bad girl' I have yet to have one. With luck I wont have to have a second MRI but if I do it should go better than the first time since I know what to expect now.

Also a certain support place thing that could help me a lot wants me to go do more testing to see if I have Asperger's or not. The doctor from 2010 isn't good enough for them I guess. So when we have time we'll ask the new doctor (Dr. B) about that and set that up.

So much red tape to get through but at least we're moving forward again unless the new tests change my diagnosis somehow.


It's been a busy year and some change since I last posted as anyone could probably figure out.