I really need to use this thing more

I keep forgetting I have blogs. I fail. So I have been diagnosed as PDD-NOS or Pervasive Developmental Disorder-Not Otherwise Specified(as 0f 12/31/2011) aka 'Something off, don't know what, here a label for you to wear be happy someone else is paying us the hundreds of thousands of dollars you owe us for it.' (Cosby Show ref.) My mother and I started work on getting money from SSI a few months ago since it has become finally obvious that the whole get a job to support yourself thing wont work for me cause of my disability(sounds so weird to write that). SSI hates me, I knew this already but they hate me more now. They want me to see their doctors who are not trained in ASDs to see if my status has changed since 12/31/2011 which would be a valid concern if I were a kid and still developing and stuff, but I'm 27 and so the chances of my PDD changing much is very unlikely. When my mom called SSI to see if we could postpone the appointments until SSI had all the paperwork they'd asked for(they goofed and messed up some of it, but it's getting fixed slowly), they said the mental part was canceled. Why? No idea. We just hope they didn't think we wanted to cancel it which we don't we just wanted it pushed back until they had all the stuff they needed. We think maybe they canceled it because they had enough stuff to not need to more metal testing, but just today we got reminders in the mail about both appointments and no mention of one being canceled. I just hope I can get on SSI by my birthday or Christmas like they suggested was possible. I really don't want to have to start over again(this is our second time doing this. First time was pre-diagnosis and didn't work out.) I'm praying SSI will be nice and things will work out. I'm also looking into volunteering in the community to try and socialize(which I fail at as socializing doesn't come naturally to me like it does to everyone else) and maybe find and make friends .... and with much lucky maybe maybe one will be a guy and lead to my having a boyfriend for the first time ever. I'd like to get married one day and in a few years I'll be 30 which sounds bad to me though everyone else(all older than me) say it's not a big deal and I shouldn't make so much out of it. I wish my Church had a way I could meet people but it's too small and all the people in it my age are married with kids already. I don't know how to get from here to that myself and no one offline seems to want to approach me in that way(expect for one guy years ago, but he was creepy.) Yeah pity party for me kinda. I'm just stressed and stuff. I've clean up my internet stuff and am trying again to stay away from bad stuff. I was kinda dumb and registered at a dating site(not the first time), but it's helped a little. There are according to the internet single guys that might date me near where I live, I just need to find a way to meet those type of guys offline, like go to another bigger church during the week and try to meet people to be friends with and see what happens. I need reason to leave the house and do stuff and getting friends would in theory help.